It's been a while since I have come to any form of conclusion.
It is really awful that there are still some people around the planet who see everything either black or white although colored technology has been invented such a long time ago.When they follow a path or idea there is no OTHER idea beside their own idea.Everything is based on their theory of life and everything else looks doomed and foggy.
Yesterday was my mom's birthday.
Went to ER last night ; where we started and one day will finish it there.I wonder if my mother has ever thought to herself that this big round extra pound is going to be able put up with all the adventures on this planet.
BUCHAREST, July 12 (RIA Novosti) - A Romanian court has rejected a lawsuit against God filed by a local prisoner serving a 20-year term for murder, a local newspaper said.
Evenimentul Zilei said Mircea Pavel's suit was against "defendant God, resident in Heaven, represented here by the Romanian Orthodox Church."
In late 2005, it was reported that the convict, serving his term in the western Romanian city of Timisoara, blamed God for the troubles in his life and wanted God brought to account for failing to fulfill the commitments He undertook and for taking bribes.
The plaintiff said that when he had been baptized in childhood, he concluded a contract with God that had legal effect - God was supposed to protect him from evil, and insisted that the Romanian church should compensate him for the alleged God-inflicted damage.
"God received different material valuables from me, as well as prayers in exchange for promises of a better life. In reality, this did not happen - I found myself in the devil's hands," the plaintiff said.
The court rejected the prisoner's claims on the grounds that "God is not an object of law and has no residence address."
This is only for my beloved friend and companion "Day Dreamer" the great. I am talking to anybody else but my dear guitarist and co-discoverer of songs whom we spent many amazing moments of our lives together and I think i won't be able anytime , anywhere to find such a comrade as he has been and he is to me.
It's right what you are doing .It's right what you have done for your soul , your creativity and your passion of dreaming. You can not imagine how many days and months I thought about you and the way you can release your aesthete part of your character which I know was suffering for such a long time. It wasn't meant for you , for your virgin soul , your never understood high-born attitudes which I have always praised.
Let your soul be free and without any boundaries . Let it fly all over this earthy planet and acknowledge what have you missed or better to say have deprived yourself of.
That natural fragrance of that Latin beauty or that taste of French strawberry or the touch of that Chinese tradition all over your body and then maybe you would understand how your all life-time day dreaming has always been meant for something pure and valuable.
Or nobody knows maybe we meet someday in that exotic dirty cafe over haight and ashbury and celebrate our very own Great Gifts !
It is really strange that some people think that other human-beings on earth have been created or better to say generated in order to complete or advance their idealogical experiences. Once they have been a ruthless comrade doing suicidal acts then became a filthy brother blowing people's brain away by a pistol and after while converted to a life-time secular intellectual with such high standards which he himself could not dream of such immoral ideals and apparently other people have been like lab rats to them. One has lost a hand because of you , one an eye and one his head.
When I was a kid I remember the moment I came across this question that if Mr.God is going to judge people and award them for their lifetime efforts at the end of the world , what will happen for example to the children who have died seconds after their birth or paralyzed people or the people who have been deceived and brain-washed by the others to kill , to go to the war or to do suicide and I remember that my mom used to say :"honey! this is Mr.God's will and you 'll never gonna find out what's going on.It's his order his continuity and he will know what to do with the people who haven't had the chance to benefit from their lives! He will judge everybody due to their capacities then!!!"
Maybe I am too depressed to even think about writing some words here in my own space of solitude but I don't think it is honest to abandon this small home and leave it like somewhere I have never been before but anyways life goes one:
What is it that keeps you alive?
It's always gonna be late.Either I am so pessimistic or so realistic about the time.Ever tried to think about something or plan about it without being nervous about getting late or being late for your plans.Ofcourse I have never been that naive to be negative about the future.I always have thought that I am gonna be the biggest star in my own field but sometimes I really think isn't it late? then my next sentence would be "ofcourse not" but can you imagine how much stress this dialogue can put in your head.Believe me it's really gonna be hard to concentrate.In simple word many people say "you think about everthing so much!".It's true , it really is.But is it possible not to think about everything too much?
This may look a little bit strange to you but just try to sympathize with me in this matter.I was just thinking that everything we do and everyone we wanna be is gonna end in one way in our mind : we just wanna be free both in body and mind. But believe me it's never gonna happen.You ask why? just let me give an example to you.If I want to drag this old laptop of mine all around the world with myself and also need an internet connection in every corner I go , so I'm kinda addicted to this world and in the result I'm kind of slave to this world.This is how our world works.Believe me there should be the rich , the poor , the killers and the victims to make this world go on. It's a wrong idea to fight for someone else on another face of the earth.Cuz if there is no one on the other side getting killed you will never be able to lay in your sofa and put your laptop on your feet and search the news.This is the order that our world has been built on; the order that history has taught us that human-being is never gonna walk toward it unless some bigger system pushes it .That's the logic and trust me no one can ever change it because it's not a plan made by a guy somewhere in the history.The hands of million of people has made only one brick of this wall.That's why I keep telling you this planet is at putesco.Cuz it is.We will never be able to change anything in our enviroment and don't forget this is only a show that we watch many many times but we will never understand why we have failed planning for our world.we just failed and failed and failed...
The world is such a dangerous place to live and in my case it's better because I am running away from a place which no longer was not my ideal of history or culture.I don't know what's gonna happen but I realy feel that the whole life is between some unsure hands abstractly. The politics was not supposed to be such complicated as it seems now. But when you are a politician and you want to seem fine and at the same time empower yourself more and more and in this way nothing would be important for you so that's gonna be the hard life. But how much do you think this "me" matters? the answer is "so much".I think everybody who is in the search of a better "me" is really an artist. don't u think? many of characters around us which we hate more and more day by day are just actors.They have another life.Another home with wives and kids and trees around them!
